"Its midnight; and its your favorite time to relief your memories that are stuck in my head, I ran to my car and drove around the city trying to shrug you off my mind. I still hear your voice in my ears and I see you in everyone's eyes. I tried to drive back to my flat, but I found myself front of your place. I stared at your window, you were laughing on the phone, like if it was your happiest time of the day; leaving me sobbing over our days, those beautiful ones you used to call them your favorite. I wanted to hold you, but I just couldn't, because sometimes holding on people who want to leave will just hurt more and eventually they will push you away even harder. You looked at my car, you sighed and huffed, I had to drive away faster, I wanted to smash into something and crash. But I knew you wouldn't care, so I didn't bother neither. You realize how much it hurts to give someone all the love and care and all they give you is ignorance? I wish I could be as happy as you when you teared us apart. I stopped on the side of the road, I hopped off the car and started to walk to an infinite dark path. I felt like the world was paused for a second, no wind blew, no trees swayed and the moon wasn't following me. It felt like the world paused when you left me. I remember walking for miles and hours, nothing was stopping me. Not even a text from you. I heard couple of dog's barks as I walked by their houses' but I didn't panic nor jump. I wasn't scared of anything, the only thing was frightening me at that time was losing you and I did. I lost you like a rain drop gets lost in an ocean. I had nothing to be afraid of anymore. I looked around and asked myself, 'am I ready to lose myself also?' although it never concerned me when I had you.
When you get the chance to read this and surely I won't be existing in this paltry world, can you please tell me if she was worth throwing me behind? Did she treat you how I did? Did she love you as much as I did? Have you stared at her eyes the way you stared at mine?
I'm writing this now and I'm leaving. I promise you, you won't hear a shit about me after you read this, you might attend my funeral, but you should know that I don't want you to be there, you left me broken, but what would heal me when I'm buried under the ground? Coming to my funeral won't fix anything, crying over my dead heart, won't bring me back to life. Just do me a last favor and don't come.
Do you know whats my favorite part about me dying? Knowing in fact that guilt will be chasing you and eating your soul alive your whole life when you realize how much feelings I had for you; I don't hate you, I never did and will never do hate you, but I just wish you feel the ache i felt when i woke up and I meant nothing to you after I gave you my whole.
Finally, I was a beautiful gift to you and you shattered me.
Sincelery
When you get the chance to read this and surely I won't be existing in this paltry world, can you please tell me if she was worth throwing me behind? Did she treat you how I did? Did she love you as much as I did? Have you stared at her eyes the way you stared at mine?
I'm writing this now and I'm leaving. I promise you, you won't hear a shit about me after you read this, you might attend my funeral, but you should know that I don't want you to be there, you left me broken, but what would heal me when I'm buried under the ground? Coming to my funeral won't fix anything, crying over my dead heart, won't bring me back to life. Just do me a last favor and don't come.
Do you know whats my favorite part about me dying? Knowing in fact that guilt will be chasing you and eating your soul alive your whole life when you realize how much feelings I had for you; I don't hate you, I never did and will never do hate you, but I just wish you feel the ache i felt when i woke up and I meant nothing to you after I gave you my whole.
Finally, I was a beautiful gift to you and you shattered me.
Sincelery
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