Trials and Tribulations#4

SORRY FOR THE DELAY GUYS BUT I COULDN'T POST LAST WEEKEND!! ENJOY AND DON'T FORGET YOUR FEEDBACKS!! 

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I was stupid and selfish, I was mean and harsh. I hate myself for doing this. 

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i looked at my parents before I go to the gate, my mother's tears didn't stop, the frown couldn't leave my father's. Hala was standing next to me.
"Bshtaglk ya kalba," she said.
I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her tight, "Hala omi w oboy wallah malhom '3airi bdniya w ana r7t w 5leet'hom al7een," I said.
"b3youni la t7ateen," she said.
She backed off and tears found their way on her cheeks.
"Ya kalba klha sh'hreen w anti 3ndii la t9y7eeni." I said
"Wallah mo m9y7ni ela esbb ely m5leek trou7en" she said
"Hala 5la9 rbk kreem w enshallah b4a ro7a 5eera," I said.
We said goodbye and I went inside.

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Touch down at Heathrow airport:

London's cold breeze, I remember when we came here last fall, it looked  different, it seemed different, it was so much better, London looked lifeless. I saw the driver, I hopped in the car, and drove to Cardiff, two hours we extremely boring, I called my family telling them I was fine, and I arrived safely.

"Thank you," I told the driver as I paid him.
I checked-in the hotel, they helped me with taking my luggage to the room.

لا زاد فيني الحزن اكتم دموعي واون

واقول ابد ما ابيك واذكر هوانا واحن

وين انت عني انا وكلتني للعنا

ماكني اللي هويت ولا كننا نفسنا

عيشتني بالوهم قتلتني بالم 

عودتني ع الدموع عرفتني عالندم

قلبي معك رجعه كلامك بيسمعه

قله يشوف الحياه وان انت ماتنفعه

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Othman's point of view: 

As I heard from my sisters that Sarah went to the UK to complete her studies. That shattered my heart even more. Now I can't even see her by mistake. I wish I could go back in time, w ma a6lgha. How stupid of me, at least astna shahar ymkn kan rbi byhdeeha. Stupid Othman.

I couldn't resist myself and I texted her. Stupid move but i miss her, I wanna know about her.

Othman Alx: 7amdellah 3la slamtk, sm3t enk r7ti Cardiff, allah ywfgk w ys'hlk. Eshtgtlk.
And I sent it. Allah yhdeek ya 3thman shloon tbe tnsaha w ent mo gadr a9lan twgf tfkeer feeha? Ana ely 4ab7ni enh hy tbeeni bs tkabrr!!

والله ما كان الفراق اختياري 

ولا عمري اخترت الوصال ولقيته 

وأنا أعشقك عشق المَطر للصّحاري 

مهما قِسى وقتك علي ما جِفيته 

ماكان بعدي عنك بالبال طاري 

اخترت بعدي عنك منك ورضيته

لو كنت داري بس لو كنت داري 

ما أعطيت لك قلبي وحبّك مشيته 

لو مل من صبري حنين انتظاري 

ما قلت أبيك ولا رجوعك رجيته 

اذبلت من طبعك ورود إعتذاري 

عطشان ذوق ولطفكم مارتويته 

ليت الزمن يقدر يرد اعتباري 

ويبري لهايب قلبي الي كويته 

روح مراح الليل والليل ساري 

لو كان مهما كان حبك نسيته

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My phone buzzed, it was a new whatsapp text.

Othman Alx: el7amdellah 3la slamtk...
I quickly unlocked my phone and I read it almost four times, I couldn't believe my eyes. I mean why would he do that, why he still wants me back. I still want him back, bs mfroo'9 ykrhni.
Sarah Alx: Allah yslmk w y5leek. Ajm3een enshallah ❤
WHY I AM REPLYING WHY!!!! I PROMISED MYSELF NOT TO TALK TO HIM!!!!

احبس العبرات يغرق داخلي ليتني اغرق ويغرق بي غلاك

في ضميرك لي حكي ما قلتلي، وفي ضميري لك حكي قلته وراك

!كل ليله عشتها منتا معي غيرتني والعمر يمضي بلاك

صرت اخاف بيوم صدفه نلتقي.. ما نميز بعضنا والموت ذاك

ليه حبيتك وانا ادري منت لي؟ كنه بأمري وكنه بهواك

مر حبك من صميمي شلني صدني عن دنيتي ومنك خذاك

عزتي لك عزتي لا شك لي عزتي لاحساس جاني يوم جاك

اخرك مدريه لكن اخري يا حبيبي حلم يجمعني معاك

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She replied back in a couple of minuets, I immediately read it. Wsh h,rd elbard Sarah??? Kthr allah 5airk 76atli glb. 3thman '3bi ent? mo tbi tnsahaaa ???

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He replied with a song lyrics
Othman Alx: علمني امسح دمعتي و اتوب
علمني ازعل منك لو مرة
ليت الحنايا يا هواي قلوب
تشوف حبي فيك ويش كثره
لي قلب واحد و انت له محبوب
ما غيرك احد هز به شعره
اذوب في سود العيون اذوب
القلب صادق و الهوى جمره
ناوي العذاب ناوي تبكي قلوب
و انا على امرك لو علي تشده
ليل المحبه لوعتة ٍ وذنوب
يا حظ من يقوى على صبره

Tears started to gather in my eyes. As cheesy as it might sound, it still hurts so much. I didn't want to cry, I wanted to stay strong. Why he makes it even harder?
Minuet later he sent another text,

Othman Alx: M3 eslammah, enshallah tkoon a5r marh aklmk feeha w glbi ma yhzmni elmarh eljaya

​كل ما تقفي مودعني 

طار القلب مني واجهك لاقاك

فاتح ابوابه

طريق لاخر اعماقي ينادي خطاك

‏رحت عني ما قويت جيت لك لاتردني

رح لغيري لو بغيت بس جنبك خلني

‏منتهي امري ولا يمدي اقاوم ياحبيبي حاجه لاماك

مايسر الحال وضعي ما يداوي بلاي إلاك

خلني بظلك اكون ولا تداريني ابد

لا تراعيني تمون اكتفي بقربك وعد

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It's been almost three months since I came to Cardiff, everything was good, studying really distracted me from thinking about my past. To be more specified, about Othman. 

"Ahleen Sarah Sh5bark?" My friend Noura said as soon as I picked up the phone

"Hala Noura 7amdellah anti sh5bark?" I said. 

"Zaina, esm3ii 6al3een ana w elbnat wanna join?" she said. 

"Wain ray7een w mta?" I asked. 

"Bnrou7 Bay b3dain cinema w bnt3shaa," she said 

"Hmm, okay I'm coming bs glti mta?" I asked and I rubbed my head. 

"Sa3a k4a w bn6l3, tjhzi w algak t7t nroo7 m3 b3'9" she said

"Okay yallah," I said. 

"Byee 7ubii," she said

"bye" and I hung up. 

I went to change my  clothes to a pair of white pants and a baby blue coat, I matched them with a black Uggs and a light grey Hijab. I applied some makeup just to not look so pale. I wore my accessories, I took a bracelet that Othman brought to me on our 5th anniversary, I choked back my tears and wore it. I took my purse and Noura was already calling me. 

"Hala Nooura," I said

"Yallah Sarah ana t7t," she said

"Yallah jaytk bye," I said and hung up. 

I was checking snapchat while I was waiting for the elevator, and Layan (Othman's brother) snaps caught my attention, it was a picture of a Wedding card, Othman and Salma's names were written on it. W tzwjt ya 3thman w ana ll7en b7srti. Allah ywfgk w ys3dk ya glb w 3umr Sarah. Yarb tkoon mrta7 m3ha yarb ma t'9aygk a3rfk ma tt7ml, w ma tt7ml a7d yz3l mnk b3d. 

  مرتاح ولا يتصنع قلبك الراحه؟

شايل في خاطرك ولا البال متهني؟

مجروح ولا شفى قلبك من جراحه؟

زعلان للحين والا راضيٍ عني؟

شخبار قلبك عسى ما فارق افراحه؟

ادري جرحتك وشلت بخاطرك مني

خسران بعدك وقلبي ضاعت ارباحه

غلطان ادري وابي منك تسامحني

تدري عيوني بغيابك ما هي مرتاحه

تبكي على فراق طيفك وانت ذابحني

ياللي ذبحني غلا شكرا على رماحه

اللي طعني بها وما يوم ريحني

جيتك من الشوق والاشواق ذباحه

اسال عيونك عسى للحين تذكرني؟

راضي بجرحك وانا ما اتصنع الراحه

.تكفى عشاني ابي ترجع وتسمعني

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"Shfeek t25rti le 15 minuets astna" Noura said. 

"Enas tslm awl w enti t'hawsheen," I said. 

"Emshi bs t25rna 3l bnat," she said. 

I had so much fun that day, until Noura haunted me with her question. 

"Sarah 3adi as2lk shay?" she said

"Akeed 7bebti," I said

 "Aish 9ar baink w bain Othman Alx?"  she said, "y3ni 7 sneen mu shwy tu3tbr 3shra," she added. 

I went silent for few moments then said, "Ma 9ar shay, bs ana ma ajeeb 3eyall w enf9lna." 

"B3d 7 sneen draito?" she asked

Lgafa much??? 

"La bs kna ndwr 3laj w ma lgaina," I said. 

"ma 3laik la t'9ygeen 9drk, w shufih al7een hu mstans w twh mtzwj w 3aysh 7yat'h 3eeshi 7yatk anti b3d,"  she said. 

Tst'hbl? shd5lha? 

"Mo m'9yga 9dri, w eli y3afek skri hl mw'9oo3," I said. 

"Asfa lw '9aygtk," she said

"La shd3waa, yallah nshoofk 3la 5air," I said and went inside the building. 

I don't get her, like we aren't even close friends 3shan ts2leen. Lgafaaa. 

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Othman's point of view: 

Today is the big day as Salma says. ya 3umri 3laik ya Salma. 

I looked to my right, and there was Salma taking off her jewelries, and applying some beauty products. She looked so happy and peaceful. I remember Sarah on our first day, she was shy yet happy. Kant shay '3eer 3n kl enas, kant shay ajml mn alf o'3niya l3bdalmajeed, kant trd ru7i. 

كيف اسيبك .. كيف اسيبك ..

وانت نظر عيني وانا حبيبك

وان حصل واختلفنا او في يوم افترقنا

شوقي يعنيلك

وانت يجيبك اصلك وطيبك

اللي بيني وبينك اكبر من السوالف

دام قلبي في يدينك 

ليه يا عمري خايف

الله لا يغير الحال .. نبقى مهما الزمن طال

الله لا يغير الحال .. نبقى مهما الزمن طال

كيف اسيبك .. كيف اسيبك ..

وانت نظر عيني وانا حبيبك

وان حصل واختلفنا او في يوم افترقنا

شوقي يعنيلك

وانت يجيبك اصلك وطيبك

يعذلوني فهواكم وانت شايف وعارف

انا مالي سواكم يا حسين الوصايف

انت في كل الاحوال .. كنت لي شمس وظلال

الله لا يغير الحال .. نبقى مهما الزمن طال

الله لا يغير الحال .. نبقى مهما الزمن طال

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Back to Sarah's point of view: 

A week later: 

I was laying on my bed texting Hala 

Sarah: Hala bla est'hbal anti glti btjeen 

H: wdiii bs oboy m3yy w b3dain bgoulk shay 

Sarah: Wshoo 

H: t5yli wa7d 56bni ams :"( 

I read what she sent and called her on skype immediately

"TST'HBLEEEEENNNN? GOULI WALLAH? meen w leeh w kaif w mn wldh? w kaif y3rfk? bsr3a" I said with excitement. 

"La elah ela allah ma amdaaani ard!!!! Esmh Hisham Alx, w m3ay b,dawam bs b8sm thani:$" she said with giggles. 

"Afaaa ya Hala t'3beeen 3aali w ana lw aroo7 el7mam glt lkkk!!! Mn mta t3rfeenh ya zaynt el7laya?" I said. 

"Ma 9ar baina shay bs a3rf esma wallah," she said. 

"Anti k4aba a3rfkk 3dlll!!!" I said 

"Ya allah ya Sarah bs solfna marh w7daa w a3rfa mn 5 months " she said

"Gltlk k4abaa, l7'6a esmh Aish nsait" I asked as I opened twitter to search for his name. 

"Hisham Alx" she said. 

I know this name, it's very familiar. 

"L7'6a Haloo a3rfa 4aa bs mdri wain sam3a esmaa," I said 

"Hw sh3rfk feeh, ymkn mn rb3 3thman ? l2na kan bnfs shrkt 3thman" she said

"Eeee a4krrhhh 3thman solf 3nh maraah ygoul 7boooob esht'3l m3ah ftraa." I said 

"Ee gltlk," she said

 "Waaaay fr7teeniii!!!!" I said 

Suddenly someone knocked the door. 

Meen y6g elbab hl,7za? it's 8 AM 

"Hala dgeega 5lk m3y fe a7d dag elbab!!" I said 

"Hw meen" she asked. 

I went to open the door and .... 

To be continued...