Sunday, December 14, 2014

Cloud 9 FINALE

First I would like to thank everyone who supported me. It really means a lot I love you all!!!!!

Enjoy

Cloud 9 FINALE 


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Whatsapp: 
T: Ana asf sam7eeni. A7bk wallah w a'3ar w a5af 3leek bs Ana mo 3arf keef aw9lha lk. W Ana b7awl agdm 3la masters, mabi Akoon esh59 ely ywgfk bdal ma yd3mk. A7bk ya n'6r 3aini 
Sent at 12:30 immediately after he dropped me back home. 
I read it and I threw my phone. I didn't bother myself to even reply with a heart. I was having a bad headache after the over-thinking I had yesterday. Turki is always my type of guys but sometimes he pisses me off and I just want to slap him. His weird and sudden attitudes blows my mind everyday. 
I wore a sweater, 3dlt nfsi shwy esm eh 3roos w k4a :$ and I went downstairs
Mama: hala halla bl3roosa el7lwa 
Me: 9ba7 el5air 
Fahad: ay 9ba7 rj3na mn edwamat 
Me: twni a97a. Abi f6oor 
Mama: wsh tbeen? 
Me: wsh feeh 
Mama: swi lk ely tbeen aw 5le merry tSweelk 7na t'3deena 
Yousef: agoul shaden Bellah 3leek jeebli kas moya 
Shahad: e5tk elkbeera 4y 
Yosef: a7d klmk anti? 
Mama: la tt'hawshon Mali 5lg tra 
Me: oboy w shai5a weenhom 
3ziz: shai5a went with salman baba didn't come yet 
Me: Ana jo3ana yarbi 
Mama: ru7i kuli wsh radk?-.- 
Me: mdri wsh akl:( 
Shahad: shaden ms. Dina tslm 3leek 
Me: ya gdmiiiii 4y ll7een tdrs? 
Shahad: ee ist'3frallah(: 
Me: wrak 
Shahad: tghrr elyoum ng9tni 
Mama: AISH? 
Shahad: ya laiil ma swait shay bs gltlha bru7 7mam w ma r'6t w 6l3t 
Mama: glt adab 
Shahad: aswi 3la nfsi ? 
Me: mn youmha ma t6l3 a7d 3adi t3wdi=)) 
Mama: en shftk ya Shahad mswyt'ha marh thaniya ya weelk 
3ziz came to me 
3ziz: your phone is ringing 
Me: oh 
T is calling 
Me: 3n e4nkm 
Shahad: 7beeb elglb 
Me: Joseph Bellah kf leen a5l9 
Yousef: affa 3leek 
G3do yt'hawshon w Ana 6l3t barra 
Me: ahlan 
Turki; Ahleen 
Turki: sh5bark 
Me: 7amdellah enta? 
Turki: 7amdellah 
A moment of silence 
Turki; bd5l bl,mw'6oo3 
Me: smm 
Turki; Ana asf 3la ely ams w I think you read my text 
Me: never mind 
Turki: aish never mind? Mo z3lana? 
Me; la 
Turki: weirdo 
Me: Mali nfs az3l :$ 
Turki: la la mush keda ya shaden 
Me: oh tbi az3l -.-? 
Turki; la bs y3ni wsho malk 5lg tz3leen jdeeda 4y
Me: lw z3lt btg3d tra'9eeni w salfa glt a5t9r elmw'6oo3 wla az3l mn Elasas 
Knt shayla b,5a6ri shwi bs ma knt abi agoul.. 
Turki: 3jbni enk wath8a eni bra'6eek=)) 
Me: 6b3an ma tgdr 3la z3li:$ 
Turki; ya shee5a =)) 
We both laughed 
Turki: weenk 
Me: barra 
Turki; bard ed5li 
Me: labsa sweater 
Turki: a9dg akeed sweater m3 shorts 
I giggled shyly 
Turki; ed5li bsr3a la aji ad5lk
Me: mabi 
Turki: byd5lk brd 
Me: la don't worry 
Turki: shaden bla 3nad la aje ad5lk 
Me: ma tgdr 
Turki: tt7dain 
Me: ee 
Turki: 5 minuets 
Me: okay Yallah bs amanah w enta jay mr elm6b5 jeeb le akl 
Turki; okay
A moment of awkwardness 
Me: turki 
Turki: 3youni 
Me: wela agoulk la 5la9 lma ashofk agoulk a7san:$. 
Turki: ma7b k4a gouli 
Me: wallah lma ashofk bgoulk a7sn a9ln face to face 
Turki: mswya shay? 
Me: la wallah bsmellah twni 9a7ya ma amda aswi ay shay 
Turki: ezibdah feeh a7d ybi y7akek 
Me: meen
Turki: Reem 
Me: omg!!! 3ndk hy al7in? 
Turki; ee twha jaya 
Reem: ahlaaan 
Me: ahlan 
Reem: mbrook ya glbu 
Me: Allah ybark feek:$ 
Reem: uff a5eeran tzwjtu 6l3 li shaib w 4a ezg ely jnbi ytm66 
Me: 7ram 3leek 
Reem: la tdaf3eeen 
Me: leeh enshallah -.- 
Reem: l2nh tbn 
Me: enti e,tbn 3-| 
Reem: Ollah 9rti tdaf3een 
Me: akeed :$ 
Reem: ezibdah abi ashofk 9dg 
Me: 7ta Ana w Haifa kman marh mshtagtlkum 
Reem: 7ta e7na 
Me: mta raj3een 
Reem: Ana b3d one week and a half w Haifa 2 weeks 
Me: 7'6kommm!! Ezibdah mta tboon 
Reem: burka 3ndk shay? 
Me: la ma atw83 
Reem: kwais ajal aklm Haifa w b3dain ntfg 3la mukan 
Me: okaay 
Reem: 54e el,bthr az3jni 
Me: okay =)) 
Reem: ya bthrk Emsk 
Turki: ahlan 
Me: hey again =)) 
Turki: esm3i bklmk lma a5l9 al7in 3ndi sh'3la shwy b6l3 
Me: okay take care and drive safe 
Turki; you too w ed5li wela tdafi 
Me: okay okay 
Turki: wallah adri enk tslkeen bs tshofen 
Me: heheheh:$ 
Turki: Yallah bye a7bk 
Me: bye 
And we hung up. 

...: shaden 
I panicked 
Me: yes merry 
Merry: do you want toasted sandwich? 
Me: yes please 
Merry okay. With coffee or juice? 
Me: coffee please 
Merry: okay 
Me: thank you 
and she left. 
I sat on a chair. I started to reply all the texts. while I was replying i felt someone covering me. I turned around and I found Turki :o 
Me; bsmellah mta jeet 
Turki: tw 
I stood up to shake hands, but he pulled me for a hug. I hugged him back. His hugs are warm and make me feel safe. 
Turki; mo gaylk tdfi ? 
Me; hmm :$ 
Turki: marh thaniya mabe ashoufk k4a roo7i bdli 
Me: turki wallah bmoot joo3 b3dain
Turki; ajal ed5li da5l 
Me: la please marh 3ajbni eljw 
Turki: mn zeenk 3ad 39ageel byd5lk bard Wenti w segank ely m6l3t'ha 
I looked at my shorts, they were pretty short. 
Turki: goumi Yallah ashoof 
Me; uff 
Turki: 3shani? 
Me; okay okay 
I went upstairs and wore leggings.  

Turki; ee k4a 
Me: wallah ma7b shay ymskni ma arta7 
Turki; wla Ana arta7 
I sat on a chair next to him 
Turki; brd el,coffee 
Me: 3aadi a7sn 
Turki; 6ayb shaden 
Me: hala 
Turki: aish shay ely knti btgouleen le eyah w ma ynf3 ela face to face 3la goltk 
Me: ahh 
I couldn't say it, I just felt shy. My face went to all shades of red.
Turki; shklha mu9eeba. 
Me: la la 
Turki: ajal aish 
Me; knt bgoul 
Turki; aywa? 
Me: mmm 
Turki; as7b elklam ts7b Ana? Bsr3a gouli 
Me; I don't know how 
Turki: uff mnk 
He turned his gaze to his phone and he was completely ignoring me. I took a sip from my coffee and stared at him for seconds. 
Me: turki a7bk 
I said with a low voice. 
I finally did. I said the word that was stuck in my tongue for the past 5 months. I felt relief. 
And I turned my gaze to the other side 
Turki: aish? 3eedi? 
Me: ahh 
Turki: bsr3a mo m9dg
Me: 5la9:$ 
Turki: amanah bs marh w7da 
Me: a7bk
I couldn't turn my gaze to him. Shyness was all over me. 
He pulled me for a side hug and kiss the crown of my head. 
Turki: w Ana amoot feek  ya Glbi 
I laid my head on his shoulder a little bit close to his chest. 
Me: turki. 
Turki; 3youn w glb turki enti Sammy 
Me: smm Allah 3dwk:$ mabi arj3 next week :( 
Turki; gltlk eg3di 
Me: la ag9d mabi arj3 hnak bdoonk. Knt eshay elw7eed ely mhwn 3ali '3urbti
Turki; Ana lw bydi ma a5leek troo7en mkan. A5leek 3ndi Ana bs 
Me: t3al m3ai:( 
Turki: w edwam? 
Me; eh2:"( 
Turki; 3adi tjeen b,summer w ma tje next year ela w Ana m3ak 
He played a song from his phone. 
اهتم فيني اهتم .. حط بالك عليا 
سكني بروحك .. و عينك .. وقلبك 
حافظ على أهل القلوب الوفية 
مو كل يوم تلاقي واحد يحبك
لو قلت لك زعلان جبلي هدية 
لو قلت لك مابيك قولي احبك 
لاتزعل ان كدرت جوك شوية 
قلبي طفل يحب يلعب بقلبك
انا لك و ودي تكون انت ليا 
يا شين غيبتك و يازين قربك 
ابسط حقوقي انك تحس فيا 
واحس اني بكل الاوقات جنبك

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LA: 

I arrived one week ago. Everything was fine and great. Turki has been calling me everyday at least twice. 

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I will skip to summer. 

Turki: al7een anti leeh tbeen el3rs a5r e,summer 
Me: l2n ma ymdi ajhz? 
Turki; bs Ana abi al7in 
Me; turki la y3ni la mlka w sm3t klamk 5la9:( 
Turki; la t'hawshen. -.- 
Me: sorry:$ 
Turki: km btjlseen b,Dubai 
Me: 4 days 
Turki; 6ayb klmeeni lma to9leen 
Me; abshr 
Turki: a7bk 
Me: Ana akthr:$ 
Turki; wallah lw ma 3ndi shu'3l kan jeetk 
Me: 7beebi:( 
Hostess: ma'am we are taking off you need to close your phone 
Me: turki Yallah lazm askra bn8l3 
Turki: okay 7beebti klmeeni lma tw9leen
Me; enshallah 
Turki; I love you take care
Me: love you too 
And I hung up 
Stranger: your boyfriend 
Me; talking to me? 
Stranger: la 6oofa 
He looked so familiar.
Me: 3rbi? 
Stranger: kuwaiti 
Me: w en3m! 
Kuwaiti guy: your boyfriend 
Me: la 56eebi 
Kuwait: oh mashallah! Twich 9'3eera
Me; n9eeb 
And I forced a smile 
Kuwaiti guy: m3k 3bdalwahab 
Me: shaden! Tshrfna 
Abdulwahab: ohhhh rfeejat Bibi? 
Me; yumma keef t3rfha 
Abdulwahab: e5ti 
Me; oh mashallah ya 9'3r edniya twni agoul tshbh a7d marh nus5a. 
Abdulwahab: galo le wayed. 
I smiled 
Abdulwahab: 56eebich turki? 
Me: ee 
Abdulwahab: klmtni 3nkom Bibi once 
Me: oh:$ 
Abdulwahab: Allah y5leekom 7g b3'6 
Me; ameen w y5leelk a7babk 
And the 16 hours flight began. 

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DXB: 
My mother was there, and Shahad too, 3ziz came. The rest of the family were back in Riyadh. Shai5a with her husband aka salman. Fahad works and baba too. Yousef a9ln ma7d yshofa =)) 

Me: mama I miss you and I hugged her 
Mama; Ana akthr 
Shahad; jdar? 
Me: shd3waa =))) I hugged her too 
3ziz came to me running 
3ziz: Dooni 
Me: zoozi I hugged him 
Mama: t3ali akeed enk t3bana 
Me; yumma bmoot 16 sa3aa mdri mta ygrboon :( 
Mama: mar7 ygrboon enti ely egrbi 
Shahad: la la Ana bagi le sannah w ajeek 
Mama; wsh troo7in 3nd e5tk w zojha 
Me; Allah w turki 3ad-.- Thani shay ngl3ha apartment thaniya :$ 
Shahad; mnb mayta 3leeh yumma. 97 enh jameeeel w ya54 el3gl w... 
Me: HEEEEEEY
Shahad; wallah shswi 6ayb;( 5leeni Akoon 9ree7a 
Me: m3 nfsk babe turki le Ana la t7lmen feeh 
Shahad: yarb aroo7 LA w alga wa7d zay turki ytzwjni 
Mama: e7trmeeeni
Shahad: ya lail antom m7d ymz7 3ndkom? Mn zeen turki 3aad w3333 
3ziz: Shahad anti bttzwjain turki bdal shaden? 
Shahad: ee ee bukra 3rsi b3d 
3ziz: keef? B,Dubai? 6ayb baba w yousef w Fahad mo mwjoden 
Shahad: 7mar wallah! La 6b3n ma ra7 atzwja 
3ziz: a7sn mo lazm. Shaden a7sn mnk 
Shahad: kl zg 
Mama: 3aib 
Mama: shaden shtsween shwy w t6ee7 3yonk bl,jwal 
Me: yumma dgeega bwreek shay 
Me: shrayek bhl,fustan ? 
Mama; yjnn 
Shahad; ely wrteeni? 
Me: ee 
Shahad: yjnn 3sa 6lbteeh? 
Me; ee:$ byjybona hena Dubai bukra :$ 
Mama: MTA 9AR ? 
Me: yumma wallah s2lt Shahad w shai5a w 5alati w kl a7d gal 7lo w glt aswelk surprise
Mama: yumma mnkkk 
Me: a7bkkk 
We arrived to the hotel. 
I spent the 4 days shopping. 
Shahad: a5eeeeeraaaan fakkah mn shopping 
Me: ma g'6eena bagi b,Riyadh abi ashya2 
Shahad: mnb jaya babe 
Me; mob bkaifk 
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Wedding day: 
Me: hala 
Mama: 5l9tu t9weer? 
Me:ee 
Mama; Yallah shwy w tnzleen enti w turki 
Me: mama la 
Mama: enthbri
Me: uff :( 
She hung up 
Turki: omk ? 
Me: ee 
Turki: shaden a7bk 
Me: w Ana akthr. 
He hugged me 
Turki; shfeek trjfeen 
Me; a5af wallah turki ma7b Enas 
Turki; don't worry 
A maid came and told us it's time for us to go down. 
We went by the elevator, then we stood front of the golden gate. 
The song played as the golden door started to open slowly. We walked in, hand by hand. We took every step together. And we will be taking the rest of our steps together inshallah.. 

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First stop of our honeymoon was in Spain. Oh god how much I love this place. Barcelona where I made most of my childhood memories. Fawaz Fawziah shai5a, Fahad Shahad and Joseph. Good days great memoirs. 
First night: 
Turki; wsh hl,7r 
Me: a7la 7r 
Turki: wallah y9l5 eljld 
Me; hena Jeena Ana Fawaz w Fawziah w Fahad w yousef w shai5a w Shahad. Kant Ayam 7lwa w enshallah tkon zayha weyak 
Turki; la t9ee7en 
He wiped my tears and stared at me, and stared back. He leaned down and pressed his lips against mine. I kissed him back and I couldn't resist it. He backed off 
Turki: dmoo3k '3alya yal'3alya
Me; turki 3umri 7kaitlk 3n 7ubi lk? w enk akthr Enas momken y5leni abtsm, w en klmat a7bk ma 9art t3br 3n wla 4arh mn msha3ri. L2ni amout feek. 
He pulled me for a tight hug, a hug that healed my broken heart, and sewed my wounds. Rbi ma y5leeni. 

After Spain we went to Paris, London, and Italy. I've spent a great time with him.. I realized that He was the one who completed me, he was the piece of unfinished puzzle. He was the one who drew a smile on my face that never faded. He was more than I've ever wished for. 7beebi turki. 

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LA: 
Now i'm 21 and turki is 27. It's my junior year. 
Turki; trak 9ayra nfsya 
Me: kl zg turki Mali 5lg. 
Turki: wsh mushkltk ? 
Me: turki tshofni adrs 7g final (: 
Turki: yarb tt5rjain bsr3a w tfkeeni 
Me: ameen. W Ana aftk kman 
Turki; 6ayb bgoulk shay 
Me; aish? 
Turki: brj3 es3oudia 
Me: leeh? 
Turki: 3rs wa7d mn agrabi w enti m3zoma kman 
Me: turki tst3b6? Finals w summer course 
Turki; Allah ya54k enti w dwrtk gouli ameen kank 3leeti glbi w nfsti 
He left the room and went to the living room. And I went back to studying; but I couldn't. Uff 4a bs y'6yg 9dri. Okay Ana 7ywana w nfsya bs 5la9 slk li :(
I went to him and sat next to him. 
Me; bgoulk shay 
He ignored me 
Me: turki wallah bz3jk leen trd 
Turki: 5air 
I kissed his lips very quick. 
Me: a7bk 
Turki; mswya tra'6eeni? 
Me: la bs agoulk eni a7bk 
Turki: ru7i 4akri bs 
Me: mnb 
Turki: goumi 
Me; wallah ma agoum
Turki: goumi bs e5tbark b3d bukra w lw ma nj7ti bhl,course b4b7k 
Me: goum bdl 5l,n6l3 n'3yr jw 
Turki; la mo enti tbeen tdrseen? 
Me; agoulk shay? Eshrha mo 3laik eshrha 3aali youm eni jaya ara'6eek malt bs. 
I stood up to leave and he pulled me to sit on his lap. 
Turki: wallah ya shaden eni a7bk wallah enk mjnoona 
Me: m7d mjn'ni '3erk 
He kissed me again, and again, and again.. 
Turki: wallah la6l3k 3shank 
My cheeks turned to all shades of red. 
Turki; goumi Yallah w gwmeeni
Me: 3jaaz 
I stood up and I helped him to stand 

Turki; Yallah? 
Me: turki ;( 
Turki; bsmellah shfeek t9e7een 
Me: abi arj3 3nd omi 
Turki: hw shadooona shfeek? 
Me; abi mama :"( 
I was crying. Mdri leeh bs fj2a abeeha. 
Turki; shaden bzr? 
Me: turki wallah b6ni marh 9ayra t3wrni abi omi :( 
Turki; esm3i enti ensd7i w Ana sweelk soup t5ff 3laik 
Me: la la 
Turki: hw shaden 
Me; t3al ensd7 jnbi :( 
I laid on the bed and he laid next to me. He played with my hair w gra 3aly.. 
I'm blessed turki, really blessed. 

The end... 


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FEEEEEEEEEEEDBAAAACKKSSSS! FOR THE LAST FUCKIN TIME !!!! 


Thursday, December 11, 2014

Cloud 9 25

Enjoy

Cloud 9 chapter 25

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2 days later. I finally made my final desicioun. I might be risky.. But life is full of risks and you can't live without risks. Hmm
Me; mama 
Mama: amri 
Me: mama fkrt w est5rt. 
Mama: turki? 
I nodded 
Mama; w aish 9ar? Mrta7a? 
I stared at her 
Mama; hw mama shfeek? 
I stayed silent. 
Mama: shaden feek shay 
I shook my head no. 
Mama: ajl shfeek? Leeh t6al3en k4a?
Me: ahh mama Ana mwafga 
Mama: akeed? 
I nodded and ran back to my room. 
What the hell you just did shaden? Mn Jdk? Shaden you've never imagined yourself and turki in the same house, sharing the same room, and bed. Shaden enti est5rti. Something in me wanted him, and something wanted to stay away from him. I loved him so much more than words can describe. 
Shaden, Allah katb k4a w akeed feeh 5eera lk. Shaden He loves you. And you love him. Shaden twkli w ely y9eeer y9eeer. 

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2 weeks and I will be off back to Los angeles. A3.
Mama: Esm3i 5l9 el7la ely 6lbteeh?
Turki and his family are coming today.
Me: Eee mama et9l 3ali elm7l
Mama: Kwais, brsl eswag al7in anti t7mmi 3shan ynzlk b,salon w yrou7 yjeebh w yrj3 lk
Me: Inshallah
I took a shower and I went to the salon, I straightened my hair then I went back home. It was already thirty minuets passed five. i'm super late i know.
Mama: a5eeran
Me: mama shswi ? hom t25ro.
Mama: e93di 5l9i bsr3a mafeeni ashd a39abi akthr, la tnzleen ela lma t5l9een
Fahad: Ahlan ahlan
Shai5a: Shaden bsr3a wela tra I won't wave your hair she shouted from upstairs.
Me: Okay dgeeega bs
Fahad: e93di lha la t39b
Me: Allah y3een. Weeen shahad?
Fahad: ray7a 3nd 9a7bt'ha twni mnzlha
Me: Yooooh
Yousef: Shaden tra shai5a w9lt 180 drja
Fahad: wsh tbeen b,shahad? adg 3leeha?
Me: la bs knt abeeha t76 le makeup mali 5lg
Fahad: Oh okay.
Me: Ezibdah byee
I ran upstairs.
Me: jeet
Shai5a: ejlsi bsr3a byjoon enas b3d agl mn sa3a.
She started to wave my hair.
Me: shai5a
Shai5a: hala
Me: 3adi as2lk shay
Shai5a: ee
Me: t7sen ely sweeta '3l6?
Shai5a: wsh swaiti?
Me: Eni r'9ait b,turki w ana 3umri 18 sannah?
Shai5a: Hmm shoofi ho feeh slbyat w ejabyat
Me: Aish hy eslbyat?
Shai5a: eslbyat Enh you're too young and you still have so much to do in your life. Elejabyat enh Al7een lma trou7en tdrseen barra zojk by9eer m3ak w mama tt6mn w tkoon mrta7a en feeh a7d 3nd bnt'ha, mo bs mama bl3kx klna. W a7la shay enna bn6mn 3leek gbl ma rbi ya54 amantna
Me: b3d 3umr 6weel. Thank you shai5a. seriously you're the best.
I wiped my tears that fell involuntarily. 
Shai5a: leeh tbkeen? 
Me: mdri. 
Shai5a: goumi 5l9t 
I stood up, and she hugged me so tight. I'm literally blessed. 
Suddenly someone came in. 
Shahad: Shahad the makeup artist is here for you young bride. As she winked 
Yara: the makeup artist helper is here also. 
Me; awww ya zeenkm! 
I hugged them both. 
They started to apply make up for me. 
Yara: ya 7mara mo cateye (: swi dramatical eye 
Shahad: a7la 3leeha 
Yara: Malt 3leek w5ri bs 
She pushed her away 
Me: yarb estwd3tk nfsi w wjhi 
Yara: trust me in this Shahad lw sm7ti 
Shahad: lw 5rbteeh ya weelk le sannah aswi 
Yara: and done. 
Shahad: wow. Amazing 9ra7a
Yara: I told you trust me. 
Shahad: 5la9 Yallah 5l,n76 el,blush t25rt 
They applied their "final touchs" 
Yara: jameela wallah wh 
She kissed my cheek. 
Me; ya zeenk wallah 6al3a 3laik 
Shahad: grey dress 97? 
Me: ee 
I went to my room and wore my knee length grey dress, it was a bit puffed from my waist. I wore my black heels. And accessories. Perfume, and I was ready. 
Mama: 5l9ti? 
Me: ee mama 
She came in. 
Mama: shaden 
Me: hala mama 
Mama: atmna enk ma tbkeen 
Me: mama k4a ra7 abki 
Mama: okay okay Yallah enzli 
I went downstairs. 
Me; ja a7d 
Fahad; mfro'9 al7in 
Me: Fahad 
Fahad: hala 
Me: Fahad 3adi a7'6nk? 
Fahad: hw 
Me: lw sm7t:( 
I didn't know why.. I just felt like hugging him. 
He pulled for a tight hug. I hugged him back. 
Fahad; feek shay 
He whispered 
Me: la 
Fahad: tbeen shay? 
I looked at him and shook my head no. 
Mama: SHADEEEN 
She shouted 
I panicked. 
Me; hala mama. And I went to her 
Mama: weenk yumma 
Me: mama jalsa m3 Fahad (: 
Mama: a7sbk foog 
Shahad: omi mtwtra akthr mn shaden... Wow... 
Mama: eskti anti w engl3i foog anti w Yara 
Shahad and Yara: a777 
Me: ro7u bs a7snlkm 
Fahad: tra jw 
Me: laaaa 
Fahad; bsmellah shfeek 
Me: la yjon shwy bs 
Fahad; ahfk bkf?
Me: Fahad 
Fahad; bye 
Yousef came 
Yousef: yumma abi floos 
Mama: rayg 8smbellah 
Yousef: b6l3 bukra 
Me: yousef roo7 bkramtk w tra jw Enas 
Mama went to greet his mother and 2 sisters. 
I sat on the stairs. Feeling lost. I was staring at the floor blankly. 
It scares me how days went by so fast. I can clearly remember when I fell from the bike while my father was teaching me how to ride it. I can clearly remember what I told Fahad when he took my PSP. And how I yelled at him. Yarb 3oonk. 
shai5a: Yallah shaden 
Me; enshallah. 
I stood up quietly and went to say hi to women. 
His mother: mashallah, sh5bark shaden? 
Me; 7amdellah b5air enti keefk 5alti? 
His mother: 7amdellah. 
Sister1: so what do you study? 
Me; I'm studying my prep year, but I'm going for finance. 
Sister2: mashallah!! 
I smiled that awkward smile and my face turned to all shades of red. They started to talk, the sisters with shai5a, and his mother with mine. And I was staring, thinking. 
Shai5a whispered to my ear: baba ybeek 
I stood up and went to Majls erjal. 
Baba: Yallah baba 
Me: baba bs2lk 
Baba: smm 
Me: shrayek feeh? 
Baba; w en3m wallah 
Me; ah 
Baba: emshi emshi. 
I stepped in, and my heart started to beat faster. Butterflies where roaming in my stomach. 
Baba: slmi he whispered 
Me: eslam 3laikm 
Turki; w 3laikm eslam. 
It's weird that we talk everyday w al7een mst7ya. Wsh jwi? 
I sat next to Fahad. 
Baba: 7na n5leekm 
La baba... 
they left. 
Turki; keefk? 
Me; kwaisa w enta? 
Turki; b5eeer 
Silence fill the air and turki decided to break it.
Turki; la tst7en
I blushed even more 
Turki; ma ylog 
He giggled 
Thank you turki for embarrassing me. 
Me: hey-.- 
Turki: bgoulk shay 
Me; tf'9l
Turki: gd a7d galk enk ajml mn elgmr bl,leela 3teema? W enk ajml mn kl elbshr? 
I blushed more than ever. 
Turki: shaden 
Me; smm 
Turki; 3adi nmlk gbl ma tsafreen? 
His question made my jaw drop.
Shaden; turki it's hard, I'm leaving in less than 2 weeks. 
Turki; I know 
Shaden; you can wait for 6 months. Please
Turki; okay. 
I felt guilty. 
Me; turki 
Turki; Sammy 
Me; 5l nmlk next week. 
Opsss.... 
Me: If you want to. 
Turki; 6b3nnnnnn lw 3ali kan 5leet'ha elyoum 
Stupid shaden. Wallah omk btkf5k. 
We talked about random things for few minuets then Fahad, and baba came back. 
Fahad gave me the look ely "leave" 
I stood up and I went back inside. I stayed with the women until they left. As soon as they left I ran to my room. To avoid any questions and "6g6ga". 
I went to my room I changed my clothes into comfy pajama, removed my makeup, pulled my hair into a high pony tail, wore my fluffy socks, jumped on my comfy bed, buried myself and my warm sheets.
I'm happy yet not. I regret everything at the moment, I want to take everything back. Every word I said, every feeling I had for him. However I believed that everything happened for a reason. W rbi katb k4a l,m9l7ti. 
Someone knocked my door. 
Me; meeeeen? 
....: shaden 9a7ya? 
Me: la shaden nayma ha4a 8reenha, ro7u
I didn't want to see nor talk to anyone. 
....: amanah Ana shai5a 
Me; come in 
Ana darya btg3d t7n leen td5l 
She came in 
Shai5a: su2al
Me; ha 
Shai5a: 9dg elygala baba? 
Me: wsh gal? 
Shai5a: elmlka next weekend? 
Me; ee. 
Shai5a: ARE YOU STUPID? SHFEEK MST3JLA ? 
Me; amanah shai5a barra w skri el,bab la anfjr bwjhk w agoul shay ma y3jbk. 5la9 glt klam w mdri keef engl3i. 
Sha5a: marh a6l3 leen t3lmeeni leeeeh? Me: shai5a please Mali 5lg 
Shahad: mjnoona anti? 
Me: BARRA 
shai5a: Shahad barra 
Shahad: trani mo bzr. 
Me: barra klkom bsr3a mabi ashoof a7d 
Shahad: Ana mar7 a6l3. 
I laid back and pulled the sheets to cover my face and whole body. 
Shai5a pulled it: Shaden explain 
Me: lw sm7ti shai5a barra 
I  was trying to hold back my tears 
I covered myself again and she pulled it again. 
Me: SHAI5A WALLAH LW MA 6SAITI 3N WJHI AL7EEN YA WEELK 5LA9!!!!! BARA BARRA MA TFHMON? MABI ASHOF WLA A7D !!! WSH JABNI ANA A9LN MN JEET W KL SHAY 5RBAN LW JLST B LOS ANGELES A7SN 3L A8L MAFEEH a7D M3AY YZ3JNI!! MABEEKOM MABEEKOM W5RU 
Tears started to fall. I couldn't hold them back. 
Both of them looked at as my parents rushed to my room. 
Mama: bsmellah sh9ayer. 
Me: e6l3o please 
I was breathing heavily. 
Mama: abshri mama bs enti hdi. 
They all left the room and closed the door. 
I laid back, and stared at the ceiling. 
Regrets regrets regrets. Bravo shaden. 

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Next day I woke in the early morning. I only slept for 2 hours. It was 6:30 am. I went downstairs, everyone was sleeping, the house was quiet. I sat in the living room, and started to flip through channels. 

3hours later: 

-mama: 9ba7 el5air 
Me: 9ba7 enour ya nour hdniya  
I stood up and kissed the crown of her head. 
Mama: goumi tjhzi
Me; leeh? 
Mama; b6l3 wyak 
Me: abshri. 
I knew that she wanted to talk about yesterday without getting disturbed. 
I went to my room, I applied some very light makeup, I didn't want to look pale. I wore a long sleeve shirt, with leggings and sneakers. I wore my abaya took my bag and went down stairs. 
Me: 5l9t 
Mama: Yallah klmt eswag 
We went to a cafe, to have breakfast. 

Me: mama 
Mama: hala 
Me; mama Ana asfa 3la kl shay 
Mama: hw yumma Shswaiti 
Me: wsh ma swait. Mama anti akthr w7da bdniya '3l6t b7gha w still mt7mltni..  9dg lw a7d '3eerk ymkn ykrhni, mama sam7eeni Allah y5leek, abeek tkonen ra'9ya 3ali Mabek b7yatk tfkren byoom eni abi az3lk.. Abik daym t3rfeen eni a7bk akthr mn ay sh59 b,hdniya wallah mama lw byde al7in a36eek 3youni. W Glbi w 7yati ya 7yati anti w Nourha w b3d kl bntk ya a'3la sh59 bhdniya 3la glb bntk. 
I hugged her a side hug, and wiped her tears who were falling. 
Me: la tbkeen 
Mama: shaden yumma, Ana ra'6ya 3leek wla 3umry z3lt mnk, ymkn a7yanan lazm awreek eni mt'6ayga bs wallah ya bnayti eni ma az3l bs Ana arbeek! W a7bk akthr bktheer! 
Me: yumma 
Mama: hala 
Me: Allah la y7rmni mnk la dniya wla a5ra. 
Mama: ameen ya Glbi anti wla y7rmni. 

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Mlka day: 
Kant 7afla m7foofa ma feeha a7d, ymkn bl,ktheer 35 w7da.. Y3ni ahli w ahl turki bs. Maknt abi aswi kbeera first ma ymdi second of all ma kan nfsyti tsm7, third knt m7tasa. 
I will skip until it's the moment where turki came in. My whole body shivered, my stomach was filled with butterflies and my face was in all shades of red. I was wearing a baby pink long gown, designed by Dior with my off-white heels. I wore my shabka. 
He placed a kiss on my forehead as soon as he stood front of me. I blushed even more. 
Turki: jameela 
He whispered. I let a sigh out and smiled.

Baba: turki 
Turki: hala 3ami 
Baba: ha4i el'3aliya bbnt el'3lya amntk 3leeha 
Turki: la tw9i 7ree9 3ammy 
Fahad: shaden mbrook 
Me: Allah ybark feek 

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We went out to have "dinner" It was a pretty good dinner date. Everything went good. Until... 
Turki: shaden 
Me; hala 
Turki: Abek ts7been awragk mn Cali's university w tjeen tkmleen hna 
My eyes grew wider. 
Me: na3m? 
Turki: a5af 3leek
Me: ma atw83 kna mtf8een 3la k4a, Ana bl,moot a8n3t ahli a6l3 w 3andt a swait ely brasi w t'hz2t akthr mn million marh w tje ant barda mbrdh tgouli es7bi ? Thani shay ant gayl btkml masters t3al kml m3ay Yallah 
Turki: ma tfhmeen anti? 
Me: wsh afhm 
Turki; a5af w a'3ar 3laik 
Me: mn aish t5af? 
Turki: edirya mo aman
Me: t3al m3ay 6ayb 
Turki: shloun aje(: magdr 
Me: ajal Ana magdr as7b awragi w bkml hnak w a3la ma b5ailk erkba
He stopped by the house, I hopped off and ran inside. 
Yg'hr yarbi. La w ma bga ela ho ygouli "es7bi awragk" wallah ya 7beebi ant maa54ni w ant tdre eni adrs barra leeh al7in jeet glt "es7bi awragk a5af 3leek" malt bs malt w3. Akrh ha no3 mn el3yal, you chose me accept me they way I'm, without trying to change me or my life's style or stopping me from achieving my dreams. 

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I woke up next day, having a bad headache. After the overthinking I had yesterday. I went to the bathroom to take a hot relaxing shower. I laid in mybubble-bath closed my eyes and started to remember everything. 

Shree6 7yati mr 3ali. Starting from when I was 5 years old  to 18 years old and a month. A lot happened in those 13 years. I lost people I loved people. I cried and I laughed. Life is really big roller coaster, it has ups and downs. Somedays pass by so fast and other days pass by so slow.
I am kind of girls who tells everyone how to stay positive, but secretly she cannot either. She's hoping someone someday will notice that not only is she empty, but she is struggling everyday she tells herself, it has to get better; but every night she goes to bed with tears in her eyes hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. 


To be continued... 

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FEEEDBAAAAACKSSS. 

Monday, December 8, 2014

Cloud 9 24

I didn't reread it so ignore the grammartical mistakes please.

Enjoy 

Cloud 9 Chapter 24 

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It was 7 PM and I just woke up. Yeah jetlagged. I went to sleep after I told my mother about Salman. I didn't hear a respond from her. She stayed quiet for 2 minuets then asked me to leave. 

Me: meeen? 
Baba: Ana obok
Me: tf'6l 
He came in. 
Me: ahlan ahlan I kissed his forehead 
Baba: yubba fa'6ya? 
Me: ee 
Baba: bs2lk 
About salman I know. 
Me: smm yubba 
Baba: ely glti 3n Salman 9dg? 
Me; baba-.-? Akeed 9dg. Wsh bstfeed lma ak4b? 
Baba; mdri yubba, ely sm3ta 3na 3kx ely glteh b'6b6 
Me: baba Ana gltlk ely a3rfa.. Baba lw ts2l 3na again a7sn. 
Baba: enshallah yubba, w shukran 
Me: shd3wa 7beebi ant 
Faj2a shai5a dr3mt 
Baba: bsmellah shfeek shai5a? 
Shai5a: ANTI WSH GAYLA ? 
Me; bsmellah wsh glt? 
shai5a: WSH GAYLA LOMI 3N SALMAN? HA E7KII 
me: bsmellah er7man e,r7eem
Shai5a: leeh '3ayra? 
Me: shai5a shd3wa. A'3ar mn wsho? Mn enk ttzwjain. W meen? Salman. 7beeebti Ana abee m9l7tk wallah 
Shai5a: ay m9l7a w enti g63ti rzgi? E4a tbeen salman gouli mo k4a 
Me: l7'6aa. Ana g63t rzgk? Tra salman 3ndi b,LA w lw abeeh agdr a54a w Jedan sahl eni a5leeh ytzwjni. Bs Ana mabeeh l2nh Ensan klb. Shai5a bs marh w7da esm3eeni wla t3tbreeni bzr 3la goltk. Shai5a marh w7da fkri b3glk mo bs tfkren b,glbk 
K2ni 5rt'ha shwy gdam baba? Blekh. 
Shai5a: Ana mfkra b3gli w abeeh w ba54h w '39bn 3leekm klkom w m7d lh d5l feeni. 
My father expressions were mixed, he was shocked yet scared. Shai5a left my room. 
Baba: bsmellah er7man e,ra7eem. Wsh hl,3a9fa ely jt? 
I couldn't help, but I laughed so hard. I don't know why. But I laughed 
Me: baba bntk mo 9a7ya wallah. Mree'6a mot5lfaa 
Baba: t3ali t3ali wsho ely lw abeeh ba54h ween ga3deen Mali 7sheema?-.- 
Me; baba shd3waa tdre eni must7eeel asweeha trani bntk w mtrbya a7sn tarbiya 
I smiled. 
Lw t3rf ya glb bntk, bntk wsh mhbba atwg3 tdfnha 7yah. 
Baba: Glbi wallah shadooon. He kissed the crown of my head.
Baba: esm3i Ana broo7 a7aki e5tk ymkn t7trmni shwy lma aklmha l7alna
Me: okay! Bs la t'hz2ha wallah Ana ely aklha :( 
Baba: abshri. 
He rubbed my back and left. 
Phew. It's was about the end of me. Wallah he was calmed. I thought he will make a big deal of it. Wallah baba kl ma ykbr yt'3yr ely bzyadah :/

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T: hala wallaaah 
shaden: ahlan 
T: knk 9ayra ma ts2leen? Shd3waa 3leek
Shaden: shswi wallah noumi m5rb6 + kl shwy 3zeema w njhz l,mlkt shai5a 
T: ee 977 salman w shai5a 
Shaden: mn mta ant tdri? 
T: Ams aw gbla k4a greeb 
Shaden: cool. 
T: I miss you 
shaden: me too:( 
T: b3d 20 hours btnwr e,s3oudia
Shaden: mo hy mnwra already ;;) 
T: ya thgaaaaaa
Shaden: y7gliii wela;)? 
T: ela wallah y7glk w nu9.  Enti nour edniya klha 
Ufff :( 
T: ma rdaiti mst7ya? 
Shaden: chub 
T: ezibdah bje el,mlka abi ashoufk 
Shaden: leh tje :| 
T: 5wyy + zooj ele5t ;) 
I blushed 
Shaden; oh nsait =)) 
T: ga3da ant'6r elyoum ely omi tklm feeh omk 3la nar 
My mother came in. 
Mama: shaden 5le jwalk bklmk 
Me: okay 
Back to whatsapp convo.
Shaden: omi btklmni ttyl 
T: Anarakb e6yara lma aw9l Dubai aklmk  
Shaden: bslammah <33 
And I locked my phone. 
Me: amri mama 
Mama: esm3i yumma zain 
Me: asm3 Yallah Shfeek? Elmn5rsha galt lk shay? 
Mama: shai5a? 
Me: mn '3airha? 
Mama: la la. Malh 3la8a be5tk 
Me: ajal aish? 
Mama: ya bnti jayen nas byshofonk 
I was shocked. Mdri I couldn't reply. 
Me: meen? 
Mama: Turki alflani. Atwg3 t3rfeena ma y7taj ashr7 akthr? 
Kna 7aas. Well kan ydri akeed. 
I nodded. 
Mama: yumma la tst3jleen w twafgeen. Yamma nas tzwjo mn 3la8a w 5rbt 7yat'hom w t6lgo. est5eeri yumma marh Mrteen thalth arb3. Leen tt2kdeen 
I couldn't say a word. I just stared at her. 
Shahad came in and killed the awkwardness. 
Shahad: oh sorry az3jtkm 
Mama: la 3adi yumma shtbeen 
Shahad: mama abi a6l3 
Mama: m3 meen 
Shahad; mdri ay a7d 6fshhhhh 
Mama: 4akrti? 
Shahad: ee wallah tw 
Me; goumi bdli Yallah Ana aje m3ak 
Shahad; 9dg? 
Me: ee 
She hugged me a very quick hug 
Shahad: shukraaan 

Nothing interesting happened. 

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Shai5a's milka: 
Kant bbaitna w mo marh kbeera, bs my aunties w cousins w Salman's aunties and some of his cousins. Kna m7taseen. It was 6 PM already and I didn't finish my makeup. People are coming after an hour. 
Shahad: bsr3aaaa 
I looked at her. She was beautiful. Wallah tjnn mshallah 
Me; shahaaad tjnnen mshallah :((((( 
Shahad: awww:( kaif my makeup 
Me; 7looo 
Shahad; ya zeenk! Awl marh tmd7eeni 
Me: ya n9aba daym amd7kkk 
Shahad: a9dggg 
Me: Yallah chub 
Shahad: bsr3a 6ayb 
Me; enshallah 5la9 
3ziz came in. 
Me; glbiii ely labsen thoub:( 
3ziz; Yallah mama tgoul 
Me: Yallah bs a76 lipstick. 
I finished my makeup very quick. I wore my black gown, it was shorter from the front. I wore my black classic Louboutins. Finally I wore my accessories, sprayed some perfume and I was done. 
I went downstairs.  
Mama: WEENK? 
Me: mama knt atjhz. awl shay 5l9t mn shai5a w tjhzt w jeet 
Mama: Yallah ja eshai5 nadi e5tk. 
Ufff twni Nazla. Wallah ma a93d bhl,k3b ely a6wl mni. I took it off and ran upstairs. 
Me; shai5a bsr3a 
Shai5a; Yallah Yallah shrayek? 
Me; t'hbleeen 
Shai5a; amanah? 
Me: ee wallah bs Yallah. 
we went downstairs. 

Shai5a signed. She was beyond happiness. I don't if should be happy for her or no? Knt shayla hmha w bnfs elwgt fr7ana lfr7t'ha. اللهم اني استودعتك قلب اختي وسعادتها فيارب لا تريني فيها بئسًا يبكيني. 
Fahad and yousef came to us. 
Fahad: Allah Allah wsh h,zain shahood
Shahad: aww Fahad shukran 
Yousef; SHADEN
Me; la t9r5 l7'6a b9l7 lipstick e5tk gbl ma yd5l 
When I finished I looked at him 
Me; n3m? 
Yousef: anti? ZWAAAAJJJ SEEDDAAAA
Fahad; 3aaaaaib yousef 
Me: 5l ymd7ni wsh y'6rk? Glbi Joseph wallah Allah yslmk 
Yousef; 5lk open minded ya Fahad 
Fahad; kl tbn Yallah emsh da5l. 

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It was time for salman to come in. Shai5a was shaking. She was scared yet happy. Her eyes spoke billion of emotions that she couldn't express. Allah ywfgk ya glb shaden enti!!! 
Salman came in. He was smiling widely, shai5a did too. Both of them were shy.he kissed the crown of her head. Ya zeenhm huff :( I never liked salman but that moment I thought he was 'cute'. Salman and shai5a went to have dinner, after we took tons and tons of pictures. 

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Finally. The day ended. Shai5a was happy. Actually all of us. 7amdellah w eshkr lk ya rbi ya 7beebi.

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Maybe we never showed it to each other, or to other people. But we've always cared for each other. We fight A LOT but we always end up laughing. We were never close to each other, yet they were the closest to my heart, they were the only people I can trust. Shai5a is the sister who always wanted the best for you. Fahad is the brother who wants to protect you with everything he has, he was you to stay safe forever. Yousef is the brother who've always cheered me up when I'm sad. Shahad is the sister who I can spend hours and hours talking to without getting bored. 3ziz is the brother who puts all efforts to make you smile and happy. May god bless them. 

To be continued.. 

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FEEEDBAAAAAACKS!!! 

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Cloud 9 23

 Enjoy 

Cloud 9 chapter 23 

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Me: aish? :o
Everyone looked at my mother then shai5a then me. 
Leeh Ana a5r mn y3lm? Shsalfa? Meen a9ln? WTF 
Uncle Hamad: mashallah, mbrook wld meen? 
Mama: Alflani 
Fuck. Nfs 3aylt Salman. 
Mama: Salman Naïf alflani. 
hell yeeah, he's salman. 
A9ln hu mo b,america? 
I stood up and went to the bathroom, closed the door and locked it. 
are they kidding me? Why didn't they tell me? I'm their daughter. They should've told me "3shan Akoon b,9oora" forever Ana a5r mn y3lm. What makes it worse? Salman. 5l9o 3yal e,Riyadh klhom w ja salman mn bd Enas ya54 e5ti. Salman ma agool ela Allah y3een e5ti 3leek, Ana mt2kda a7d da3y 3leeha. 

Wait, that explains some of Salman's weird attitude lately. Because he's marrying my sister, ma ybi agool 3na shay. 7mar wallah ma a5leeh e5ti ma tstahl wa7d nfsa. M'3zlji w bzr w klb w 7geer. But how can I tell my mother. Btgoul "tbeen twgfeen rzg bnti" w btswi drama. But I need to talk, I have to talk. I MUST TELL MY MOTHER.

I washed my face, and went back to the living room. I acted normally that day. 
Mama: Ana mashya Yallah m3 eslammah 
Me; mama bje m3k 
Fawziah: twk btjeena. 
Me: la broo7 elbait bukra ajeek e9ba7 
Fawziah lw sm7ti Ana 3ndi dwam mnb fa'6ytlk 
Me: WAAAK ee 97. Yallah ajl bje 3nd 5alti. 
Aunt 79a: 7yak yumma 
Fawziah; Mabek tjeen baitna. 
Mama: 3zooz Yallah mama 
Me: Ana shawrtk? Bje 
3ziz: mabi aroo7. Abi al3bb 
Fawziah: ya weeelk lw jeeti  
Me: malk d5l 
Aunt 79a: 5la9 la tt'hawshon bzran? 
Me: Yallah m3 eslammah bs. W 5alti bjeek bukra mn e9ba7 
Aunt 79a: 7yaaak 
Fawziah 5ztni. And we brust out laughing. 
Me: Yallah 3ziz
3ziz: la ma nroo7 
Me: emsh Yallah mama 6l3t 
3ziz: mabe mabe 
Me: bukra feeh mdrsa mo bkaifk 
3ziz: mabe aro7 mdrsa abi al3b w5ri 
And he ran back to where my little cousins were playing 
Me: 3ZIZ WALLAH LW MA JEET MA A36EK YOUR GIFT 
3ziz: MABE 
Shahad came; Weenkm Yallah Fahad m39b 
Me: o5ok elbzr 4a mob ra'9y y6l3 
Shahad: mn Jdk anti? Kl esboo3 k4a sheeleh '39b 
Me: wallah Manb fa'9ya 5l,n5leeh amanah yje Fahad wela yousef yhz2ona 
Fahad came: WEENKM? SWAG ANA BARRA? 
Fawziah: jak elmoot ya tark e9alah 
Me: wallah 3ziz mo ra'9i y6l3. 
Fahad: Erkbu esyarah 
We went to the car 

Mama: wain o5okm? 
Me; yjeeb 3ziz 
Mama: leeh 5leetoh? Ma shftooh m39b? 
Shahad: mama wldk yrw3. 
Mama; shfto al7in jals ybki wsh yskta. 
Fahad opened the door. and 3ziz was crying. Ya lail 
Me; t3al 3zouz 7beebi 
He sat on my lap. 
Mama: Allah y9l7k w yhdeek ya Fahad 
3ziz; kareeh Fahad 
Fahad: km math agoulk la tl63ni barra ma asht'3l 3ndk Ana ? 
3ziz; kl zg 
Fahad: AISH?
The car filled with silence leen w9lna elbait. 

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I went to my room changed my clothes, wore my socks, plugged my phone to the charger and took my laptop laid on my bed played a movie, and overthinking was killing my brain. 
Shall I tell my mother? Or no? She'll get pissed off and I know it. And also she will be pissed when she knows about Salman's reality when he and shai5a get married. Wallah I'm so confused. I will tell her w ely y9eer y9eer. Ana a7b e5ti w a5af 3leeha mn wa7d nfs salman. Salman, m3roof 3na ra3i bnat w yshrb w yd5n. W atwg3 enh mshbk bnat California klhom. Ufff bgoul bgoul 5la9. 

That night I cloudnt sleep. I stayed all night thinking, I watched couple of movies, read a book until finally my mother woke up and all of my siblings went to their schools, and Fahad went to his work; shai5a was still sleeping. At 9 AM before I go to sleep since I'm jet lagged I decided to talk to my mother, I went to her room and knocked the door. 
Mama: meen? 
Me: Ana shaden 
Mama: t3ali mama 
I tiptoed and closed the door. I sat next to her 
Me; hmm.. mama bgoulk shay 
Mama: enh ma glna lk 3n shai5a? 
Me: mo bs k4a
Mama: aish ajal? 
Me: mama salman
Mama: shfeeh? 
Me: hu kan ydrs b,LA 
Mama: 3arfa
Me; mama elbnat henak y3rfoona 
Mama: aywa? 
Me: mama sum3ta mo kwaisa abdn. 
Mama: wsh g9dk? 
Me: mama wallah Ana a7b shai5a o5ti w ma abeeha ela eshay ezain wallah mo g9di a5rb 3laiha bs mama wallah m3rouf 3na m'3zlji w ra3i bnat w yshrb w yd5n. Mama sum3ta mo kwaisa. 
Mama: bs s2lna 3nh 
Me; mama akeed hena mar7 ygolon 3na shay ma y3rfoona kwais. 
She remained silent and guilt ate me alive.


To be continued.. 


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FEEEEDBAAAAAAACKSSS!!!! 

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Cloud 9 22

On the last chapter I only got 3 feedbacks.. Even tho it was a very long chapter.. Wallah yt3b eni aktb post b3dain ma ashoof a7d mtfa3l wsh 4a, wrakom 9ayreen hajdeen?:(?


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Cloud 9 chapter 22

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Me; mama w7shteeeeni 
And I hugged her so tight. 
Finally, Riyadh. 
Me: shahaaaaad 
And I hugged her 
3ziz: dooooni
He jumped on me. Ya zeena hl,wld:( 
Fahad; hala wallah 
I he hugged me so quick. 
Me: wain yousef? 
Shahad: naym youm n6l3 
Me: leen mta ynam hl,wld? 
Mother: 5leeha 3la rbk 
Shai5a: amanah 5l,nrkb esyarah. 
My father came. 
Me: 7beebi 
I hugged him too. 
Baba: 7amdellah 3la slamtk 
Shai5a: 5la9 Yallah 3,syara 

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Mother: Fahad yumma Nzl shn6 5watk Allah y3afeek 
Fahad: abshri 
Me: sh3ndk 9ayr mu6ee3? 
Fahad: gd jrbti elkf? 
Me: offffff shglt nzm7 nzm7 bro7 aslm 3la Cherry eshtgt lha wallah :( 
Shai5a: Fahad 7beebi 36ni asa3dk 
I went back to them 
Me: e5wani feekm shay? Okay Fahad Amnah Bellah omi w k4a bs shai5a? Shai5a feek 7rara? Wela Ana a3rf!!!! Akeed tbeen mna shay 
Shai5a: engl3i da5l 
Me: a7. Gouli li klam 7lu 6ayb wsho engl3i 
Fahad: trana wagfeen b,shar3
Me: Bye bye 
I ran inside. W 36eet'ha ermya elmult'hba m3 3bayti 
Me: IM GOING WIIIIIIDEEE 
Mother: g9ri 7sk 
Baba: 5leeha t9r5 eshtgt l,9ot'ha bl,bait
7beeebi baba :( 
I hugged him so tight 
Mother: esm3i bs nami anti w el39r bgwmk  tro7in ljdatk w 5walk w 3maank 
Me; ma feeni noum abi arg9 w a'3ni w a9r5
Mother: Allah ythbt 3golna bs 
Me: a7bk mommy broo7 at7mm 
I ran to my room. I opened the door, it was clean and smelled very good. 
....:shaden 
I turned around 
Me: CHEERYYYYY 
cherry: I miss you 
I hugged her so tight, 
Me: I miss you too. 
Cherry: welcome back 
Me; awww thank you. 
She left. 
I entered the room, no one knows how much I miss this place. Every corner every wall has a memory of mine, most of them were with Fawaz.. I looked at my bed, and I remembered when he used to come to my room every morning of the holiday and jumps on my bed. And there on my sofa where we used to lay down and watch some TV series and movies, have some popcorn with milkshakes. Oh and there on the floor, where we used to play monopoly, and sequence. And there, by the window we used to sit and tell our secrets, and we know that they're going to a very deep place. I miss him so much. 
I wiped my tears and jumped on my bed.  

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...: Dooni mama says wake up 
....:Dooni Yallah 
Me:, ya rbe abi anam 3zooz roo7 
3ziz: we will go to granny Yallah
He kept shaking me 
Me: okay! I will take a shower get out 
3ziz: promise me enk tgoume? 
Me:: ee okay bs close the door bf95 
3ziz: 3aib 
Me: OUT 
He left and closed the door. I covered myself with my warm sheets and went back to sleep. Few moments later someone came in. 
...: MA GMTI? 
Shit she's mother 
Me: ela ela 
Mdri kaif bs fj2a lgait nfsi bl,7mam. 
I took a quick shower and wore my leggings with a black and blue sweater. I blow dried my hair and applied some makeup. I wore my sneakers abaya took my bag and rushed downstairs. 
SHIT I FORGOT MY PHONE. I ran back and took it. 
Me: 5l9t 
Fahad; hom ra7o Yallah Ana Bwdeek 
Me: o5oy ant 6bee3i? 
Fahad: ee bsmellah shfeek? 
Me: 9ayr 7leel marh. Tnzl eshn6 tw w al7in tstnani
Fahad: emshi bs la ahfk kf 
Me; a7 
He pushed my. 
Me: a39ab 
Fahad: ma wdi a3trf bs eshkwa llah
Me; aish=)) 
Fahad: eshtgt lk wallah 
Me: awwww adri 
Fahad: tbeen akl? 
Me: e9ra7a eni mayta joo3 
Fahad: Yallah Bwdeek m63m wsh tbeen 
Me: mabi m63m wallahi 6fsht mn m6a3m 
Fahad: 5la9 ajl Bdg 3la omi bgoulha tshelk mn '3da Annah 
Annah انّه= granny bs 7na nsmeeha k4a  
Me: ee please!!! 

Finally we arrived to my granny's house. 
Me: HALLAAA WALLAAAAH 
Annah; ahlan ahlan 
Me; Annah Glbi Eshtgt lk 
Annah: esht2tlk aktr sho a5bark? 
Me: kwaisaa 
I said hi to the rest of my aunties uncles, cousins maids. Literally everyone. 
Me: OMG eshtgt lkom 
Mama: shadoona mama aklk bl,microwave 
Me: bakkla b3d shwy. 
Uncle Omar: ya bnti goumi kli trak m5tfya 
Me: mo al7in:$ wallah marh eshtgt lkom bjls wyakm 
Me: wain Fawziah w 5ala 79a w f6oma? 
Aunt lamia: jayen b6reeg twni dagga 3leehom 
Fawziah: salaam 
Me: FAWWW 
Fawziah: SHADOOON I MISS YOU 
Aunt Lama: e6ayb 3nd 4krh. 
I hugged her so tight. 
I hugged little f6ooma and aunt 79a. 
F6ooma: shaden Anti 9rti kbeera w eshtgt lk leeh 6wlti
I giggled 
Me; sorry baby uff eshtgt lk ktheer kthr elb7r 
F6ooma: ely b,shargiya ? 
Me; ee w akthr mn ely b,shargiya 
She hugged me. 
Aunt 79a: sh5bark yumma shaden 
Me: zaina wallah enti sh5bark 
Her white, and clear skin, her healthy face, turned to under eyes black bags, and pale face. 7beebti 5alto 
Aunt 79a: mshtagtlk w l7sk f,baitna
Me: 7beebti 5alti, 5la9 wla yhmk Anam 3ndk elyoum 
Fawziah: 5eeeeeeeeer 3azma nfsk? 
Me: shd5lk? Broo7 bait 5alti anti shd5lk? 
Mama: esm3u bs 
All of us: hala 
Mama: mlkt shai5a bnti b3d esbo3een w nu9 
My eyes popped out, my jaw dropped down. 
Me: aish? 
Everyone looked at my mother then shai5a then me. 
Leeh Ana a5r mn y3lm? Shsalfa? Meen a9ln? 

To be continued...

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Sunday, November 30, 2014

Cloud 9 21


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Cloud 9 Chapter 21


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I took the bus and went back home.

What a great way to spend my ‘18th birthday’ starting from turki, to crying on Fawaz. Lets hope this day will pass by so fast.. By a blink of an eye. 
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Shai5a: sh3ndk raj3a? mo bt6l3een
Me: t3bana
Shai5a: ah 
Me: shai5a
She ignored me
Me: shai5a shai5a 
She ignored me again 
Me; wallah eni ma aklm jdar! Shai5a Rdi 
Shai5a: shtbeen 
I went and sat next to her on the couch 
Me: momken t5leen jwalk shwy 
She lifted her gaze on me 
Shai5a: tklmi asm3 
And looked back at her phone 
Me: enti jaya tn6green? Esm3i bs bgoulk shay wa7d 
Shai5a: n3m? 
Me: amanah shai5a wallah I'm so sorry even if I didn't anything. Wallah Asfa please sha5sh5
Shai5a: enti mn glti sh5sh5 w Ana hwnt asm3k 7ta 
Me: shai5a:( a7bk tdreen? 
And I kissed her cheek very quick 
Shai5a: y3 engl3i
Me; wallah mar7 aroo7 leen tgolen enk ra'9ya. Ma7b ajls m3 a7d z3lan mni 
Shai5a: ra'9ya bs engl3i 3n wjhi 
Me; Glbi wallah whhh and I kissed her again 
I sang while running to my room 
Shai5a: nshbaaaz gsmbellah 
Me: y79lk 
Shai5a: t3ali Ana jo3ana 
Me: tbeen t6l3een 
Shai5a: anti leeh ma 6l3ti 
Me; bs mabi a6l3 m3hm elyoum I want to spend time with you.
Shai5a: Yallah Gomi n6l3 
Me: klmti mama? 
Shai5a: ee tslm 3leek 
Me: btrj3een weyay? 
Shai5a: Eee 
Me: cool yalla 6ayb wsh msht'hya 
Shai5a: pizza 
Me: OMG Bwdeek m7l pizza jeeta awl ma jeet hena marh l4ee4 
Shai5a: Yallah 
Me: esm3i bshr6 
Shai5a: aish 
Me: t3zmeeni? 
Shai5a: Ana e'6eefa 
Me: m6fra:$ 
Shai5a: emshi bs. 
We went to the restaurant ely Jeenah Ana w turki awl youm. T4kroona? el5aleej Klh hena.
Shai5a: ez7ma tgrf 
Me: 3adi lazm tt3wdeen 
Shai5a: table for 2 
they made us wait for 20 minuets. 6b3n shai5a tt7l6m. 
Me: 5la9 chub. T3wdi, Wla m63m hena ma tnt'6reen ela lw mswya reservation. 
Shai5a: malt bs 
Chasher; Ms. Shaden 
Me: Yallah t3ali(: 
We sat, and the table was across ours where full of Saudi guys they were so annoying. 
Shai5a: la jd y3 
Me: chub amanah e4a ma y3rfoonk Ana y3rfooni 
My phone buzzed, it was a whatsapp notification 
T: lift ur head up. 
I read it without unlocking my phone 
He was sitting with the bunch of Saudis. 
Shai5a was so into her phone. When he saw me he winked. Jmalk jmal mush 3aadi ya turki :( 
T: j3l 3yooni ma tn7rm mn shoft h,'97ka <3 
I was like awww :( 
Shaden: :$
T: meen ely m3k? 
shaden: e5ti 
T: ts6lll 
Shaden: tbeeha? Traha akbr mnk 
T: 3adi 3ndk ? 
Shaden: ee. 
T: afaaa 
T: ezibdah abi aklmk 
shaden: bt4b7ni 
T: uff mta btro7 
Shaden; btrj3 m3ay bl,Christmas 
T: btrj3een bl,Christmas? 
shaden: ee enshallah, enta? 
T; bt5rj(;; 
Shaden: amanah;o 
T: ee bs brj3 akml masters 
Shaden: cool
T: yeah. 
Shai5a: shaden 
Me; bsmellah 
Shai5a: shfeek? 
Me; enti ely shfeek fj2a
Shai5a: abi akl. 
Me: e6lbi 
Shai5a: enti wsh a7la shay 3ndhim 
Me; mdri ma3rf 
shai5a: ma mnk fayda 
Me: chub 
I went back to my phone 
T: shfeek t'hawshenha 
Shaden: tgoul e6lbi li 
T: e6lbi 6ayb 
Shaden: agoul 5l,a6lb l,nfsi awl b3dain a6lb lha. 
T: ezibdah mta r7ltk? 
shaden: 1 dec u? 
T: 2 dec 
Shaden; cool. 
T: ezibdah a7akek b3dain 
Shaden; ok 
T: a7bk 
Shaden: <3 
mama, baba, shai5a, Fahad, yousef, Shahad, 3ziz, I'm so sorry. I can resist him. I love him. 
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My relationship with turki grew bigger and bigger, guilt was eating me alive. we we aren't lovers, nor friends. Simply we are more than friends less than lovers. 
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So today Me and shai5a are going back to Riyadh. Finallllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy no one knows how much I miss Riyadh. 

Shai5a: amanah mabi t6eer 3leena e6yra Yallah 
Me: ya Allah 6yb la t7neeen! We still have 5 hours w elm6ar bs 1hour. 
Shai5a: yarbi 9brni 3laik 
Me: Yallah 5l9t 
We took the luggage, and left the place. 

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LAX: 

we checked in and went to the gates. We had 1 hour and 45 minuets, and I was s t a r v i n g. 
Me: ju3ana w ma7b akl e6yara
Shai5a: Yallah 7tabana 
A fact about our family: we hate airplanes food. Ygrfna in someway. 
Me: Burger King sharyek? 
Shai5a; ee ok 7lo 
We went to Burger King and ordered. 
Me: agoul shai5a 
Shai5a; hala 
Me: lw anti 3umrk 18 sannah okay w ja a7d tgdmlk btr'6een feeh?
Shai5a: Hww sh3ndk
Me: bsr3a Rdi 
Shai5a: fj2aaa... A7d gaylk shay(: 
Me: agoul bs shai5a, eshrha 3ali youm as2lk-.- 
And I went to take the food. 

I was playing with the food and thinking about what Turki told me yesterday. Uff wallah y7yr.
Flashback
 The day before my flight. I was packing and shai5a was sleeping. It was 1 past midnight. Turki called. Ard? Ee? La? Rdi bs 3aib. Tklmeena whatsapp w phone la? Hy 5arba 5arba 
Me; alo
Turki; hala halla b,h9oot 
Me; hala feek
Turki: sh3ndk 9a7ya 
Me: packing 
Turki: ll7een? 
Me; lain a5r dgeega. 
Turki; 6ayb ynf3 twgfeen shwy bgoulk klam. 
Me: ee akeed 
And I went to the balcony. 
Me: smm
Turki; smm Allah 3dwk, bs2lk 
Me; hala 
Turki; shaden anti t7beeni 9dg? 
I remained silence. 
Turki: shaden t7beeni?
Me: ah turki 
Turki: wallah enk m7yrtni ya shaden. Kl marh agool btgdmlha bs a5af enk ma tbeeni w trdeeni. W mrat agoul hy tklmk akeed t7bk. 
Turki: lw aje a6g bab baitkom btgblen? 
Me: turki it's not that easy 
Turki; I know. 3shan k4a s2ltk gbl ma aswi ay shay w aklm omi 
I didn't reply. 
Turki: tbeeni? 
I want you but I can't tell you. I'm dying to be with you forever. 
Me: Allah yktb ely feeh el5air 
I couldn't say more nor less. 
Turki; a3tbrha ee? 
I didn't reply. 
Turki: t9b7en 3la 5eer, a7bk
Me: w enta mn ahlh.. 
Gouli w Ana b3d, it's your only way to tell him that you love him. 
Me: Ana kman
Turki: enti aish?
Me; kman
Turki; Allah ys3dk ya shee5a.
His tone showed how happy he was.  
End of flashback. 

Shai5a: leish ma aklti? 
She stopped the train of my thoughts 
Me; ha! Ela ela akl 
Shai5a; kli bsr3a 9arlk nu9 sa3a tl3been bl,akl 
I ate. I couldn't finish my food. 
Me: Yallah 
Shai5a: ma 5l9ti aklk 
Me: shb3t 
Shai5a: 7raam 
Me: wallah marh ktheer. 
Shai5a: 36eeni eyah b36eh 3aml aw shay 
She cutted from where I ate and placed thefood back in the box and gave it to the dustkeeper. 

Me: ft7 el,gate Yallah. 
We went to the gate. And finally we sat on our places. I hate airplanes y3. 
Me; bnam lma nw9l gwmeeni 
Shai5a: 16 sa3a? 
Me: ee? Ams mo nayma zain. 
Shai5a: keefk wallah 
And I closed my eyes. But I couldn't sleep. 
Shaden, tr'9een feeh 3la 6oul k4a? Shaden, anti 9dg t7beena? Shaden, anti 9dg tbeena?


To be continued.....

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Cloud 9 20


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Cloud 9 chapter 20 

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Shai5a; men turki? 
Ops!!!! My face color and expressions started to change. 
Me: my project partner 
Shai5a: w leeh dag hl,7za 
Me: mdri 3na. 
Shai5a: '3reb. 
I started to shake. Haifa came to me
Haifa: shfeek 
She whispered 
Me: engl3i please 
Haifa: 6ayb e7na bnmshi yallah bye 
Me: la amanah 5lokom 
Haifa: sorry baby bs t25r elwgt. A7bk 
She kissed my cheek very quick. 
Bibi: awl ma t5l9een class-atich bacher mzhbtlich a7la 6l3aa! 
Me: Glbi wallah 
Bibi: you guys are all invited 
Reem wla yhmkk Ana gblk bje 
we laughed. Shai5a didn't. She was all silent  hdoo2 ma 8bl el3a9faa. 
They left. 
Shai5a: wsh gayltlk omi? 
Me: aish? 
I tried to act normally. 
Shai5a: la tst'3been 
She was pissed 
Me: ma ast'3bi 
Shai5a: Ana drait 3n kl shay, eni sakta mo m3nata ma adri 
Me: 6ayb? 
Shai5a; agoul l,omi? 
Me: shai5a wallah ma swait shay 
Shai5a: w Laih dag 3laik 
Me: ho Nashb 
Shai5a: ya shee5a!! 
Me: wallah 
Shai5a: w whatsapp convo? 
Me: mta graiteeha? 
Shai5a: grait'ha w bs. 
Me: shfte kaif rdait 3leeh. 
Shai5a: lw enk mo m36yt'h wjh kan ma klmk abd
Me: ya Allah. Mo m9dgtni call him Yallah 
Shai5a: mnb bzr. 
Me: lw enk mo bzr kan 9dgteeni. 
Shai5a: klamk ma yt9dg 
Me: agoulk shay? Thank you for ruining this day. Kni nag9tk a9ln. 
I went to my room and slammed the door.
No one will ever understand me. No one but Fawaz. Fawaz if you can come back. For a moment. For a day. I want to hug you and tell you everything, I want you to help me, lead me to the right path. Allah yr7mk 7beebi enta. 

I changed my clothes and digged myself under my cold sheets and went to a very deep sleep.
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I woke up next day, did my daily routine. shai5a was sleeping. She must be jetlagged. I made my coffee and went to the bus station.


Finally my classes are over. W bukra off, 9dg el,off n3maaaaaa.
My phone rang and I picked it up. 
Me: hala Fawziah 
Fawziah: happy birthday 
Me; aww thank you 
Fawziah: eshtgt lk 
Me: Ana akthr wallah 
Fawziah: mta btrj3en? 
Me: December 1 ymkn 
Fawziah: wallah marh baitna fa'9i bdoonk. Bs Ana w fa6oom:( 
Me: Glbi :( Yallah Tzwji w emli elbait 
Fawziah: y33333333 
Me: b3ddd! Weenha omk 
Fawziah: nayma 
Me: slmi 3leeha 
Fawziah Ybl'3 
Fawziah: Shtswen 
Me: twni m5l9a classes w astna 97bati ymrooni. 
Fawziah: 6ayb bs2lk 
Me: hala 
Fawziah: lma tshtagen l27d w tdreen enh mst7eel yrj3 
I remained silence and tears gathered in my eyes blurring my vision. 
Fawziah: shaden amanah wallah mo 3arfa shswi 
Me: lw Ana a3rf kan shfteeni swait'h. 5la9 ed3eela 
Fawziah: baitna y'6yg e9dr. 
Me: bl3ada hl,youm ysweeli feeh pranks w ygool "birthday gift" 
Fawziah: bl3ada hl youm yg3d y9jna esh7no elcamera w rtbo 
Me: Allah yr7mh. 
Fawziah: mama ll7een tbki 
Me: Ana ll7een abki. 
Fawziah: esm3i aklmk b3dain 
Me: bye 
Fawziah: I'll call you 
Me: okay 
And I hung up. 
Edniya 9kt feeni l7'6t'ha. Mdri shswi. Mali 5lg shay. I decided to go back home. 
I cleared my throat and called Bibi. 
Me; hala Bibi 
Bibi; halla yallakani greeba 
Me: Bibi Ana rj3t elbait t3bana ma feni a6l3 
Bibi: Hww shaden shfeech? Sh9ar? 
Me; Mali 5lg bs. T3bana shwy 
Bibi: slamtich. 5la9 lma tt7snainen call me w n6l3 okay? 
Me; okay 
Bibi; Yallah bye 
Me: bbye 
I hung up. Went to the bus station and waited for the bus. 
Shaden. What's wrong with you? Crying won't bring him back. Shaden he's in a better place. Shaden you miss him. You need him. 
The bus arrived and I went back home. 

To be continued.. 


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