My Life Changed In A Day 3

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Modhi went to get something from upstairs, then that creepy woman, came and sat next to me. She sat quietly for 1 minuet maybe, then whispered to my ear: e5ti w bnt'ha lhom n9eeb mn el7lal.

My jaw dropped. At first, I didn't get. But then, I was shocked. Very shocked..

I froze for a second then turned to her and whispered: wsh g9dk?

Creepy woman: atwg3 enk kbeera ldrjt enk fhmti wsh glt, m3 eslammah. And she left. 

Yeah she left, as simple as that.
Her words felt like a hot water was poured on me in the middle of August at 12 o'clock. My father was married to another woman, and he also has a daughter from her. Why he didn't tell us? Why he hid it from us? I laid my head back on the coach, closed my eyes and flashbacks started hitting me. 

Flashback when I was 13 years-old: 

Rana: baba leeh ma ttzwj? Ant m7taj wa7da tgablk w tdareek! 

Baba: la Rana 7beebti, 93ba atzwj.

Jay: bs baba Rana m3ha 7g. 

Khalid came in. 

Khalid: eslamu 3laikom, and he kissed my father's forehead. 

All of us: w 3laikom eslam 

Khalid: ween samo? 

Jay: nayma a'6n 

Khalid: ya rbe leeh tnwmonha? Tz3jni bl?lail ma tnam(: 

Father: 5la9 a54ha 3ndi el,Laila 

Rana: la yba Ana a54ha ma 3leeh 

Father: anti wrak drasa w ha4i a5r sannah lk lazm tshdeen 7eelk 

Rana: la yuba ma y5alf Ana zay omha mo bs e5t'ha elkbeera 

Jay: mn zeenk 3ad t9eren omna w3 -.- 

Father: Jumana 3eeb!! 

Rana; Jumana bla 7rkat bzran l,ahfk bkf. 

...: dodi dodi

Khalid: samooo 

And she ran to him and hugged him, w shalha. 

Khalid; 9ba7 el5eer ya jameela

Jay: ya lail, bye Ana ray7a '3urfti 

Father: shfeek shfeek? T'3aren mnha? 

And they all laughed. 

Jay: ha ha ha, la ma a'3ar bs 3ndi homework bsweehom

Father: Allah ywfgk 7beebti. 

And I went to the stairs, I didn't go to my room, I stayed and listened to their conversation. 

Father: el'3eera bt4b7 e5tkom 

Rana: yuba ma 3leek fatra w t3di

Father: bs 7ram m7d m36eeha wjh bhl bait kln lahi bnfs'h w sh'3lh w drast'h wela b,Samo

Khalid: 9adg oboy, 5la9 yuba Ana mw'9oo3 juju 3ali. 

Father: ma tg9r 5ald 7beebi wallah 

After I heard them I ran directly to my room, and closed the door; I took my journal and started writing. 

13th of November 2008, Thursday. 1:37 PM

Dear Diary, 

I never wanted my family to feel sad about me, or they think that I feel jealous from Sama. I never wanted to be their Thursday afternoon talking. I love Sama, but I hate the way they treat her, they think that she's an angel from the sky. I know that she's only 3 years-old but also I'm still young and I need someone who treat me like the way I have to be treated. I have to be treated like every teenager in this world.. I hate being ignored, and they always ignore me, because they think that I'm still young? Well I'm young but not very. I have a brain and I understand every single thing they say. I'm just old enough to understand everything. Ugh I just wish I can tell them how I feel. I love you my Diary, you're the only thing that is always here for me when I need to talk, or express, or even cry. You're a great listener. 

Sincerely, 
Jay. 


Modhi's voice, made me go back to reality.
Jay: Hala hala
Lama: Shfeeek?
Jay: La wla shay bs rasi y3wrni shwy
Modhi: 6b3n by3wrk ma aklti shay mn ams.
Lama: 9adga Modhi, bgoum ajeeblk akl.
I was silent, I didn't want to talk.
Nas jaw ktheer y3zoon.. And i was still silent.

After a while..

Lama: 5u4i kuli, toasted cheese sandwich with honey, just the way you love it! she said it with a smile on her face.
i just stared at her for couple of seconds then said
Jay: thanks bs mabi
Lama: mo bkaifk, 7ram 3leek wallah t3bt w ana asweeha..
Jay: 3shan ma afshlk wallah wela ana ma asht'heeha as I took a bite from the sandwich. 
Lama; glbi ely ma ybon yfshlooni wallah
I smiled, a weak smile, a smile that showed how much in pain I was..

After the 3aza, at 10 PM, people left only the close people stayed.. including Modhi and Lama and their mothers.
My auntie Samira came to me (my father's elder sister)

Aunt Samira: Ween Samo?
Jay: in her room
And she went to her. 

Rana and Maisa (my cousin) came to me

Rana: jay Glbi wsh tbeen takleen? 

Jay; mabi shay 

Maisa: ma y9l7 k4a shofi wjhk keef a9fr w t3ban 

Jay: ma asht'hi 

Lama: wallah Rana 7awlna feeha mo ra'9ya 

Rana: Jumana lazm takleen mo zain lk k4a abdn abdn 

Jay: ma asht'hi shloun y3ni? 

Rana: mo 3la sh'hwa ho! Gltlk wsh tbeen akl y3ni wsh tbeen? Bla dl3 bzran 

Jay: 5la9 mabi shay uff. 

And I ran upstairs, but this time not to my room, to my father's room.. 

I took the picture that was next to his bed, it was him and my mother on their wedding day. I stared at it for few minuets, then I started talking to it.. 

Jay: hey, sh5barkom? Eshtgtlkom marah. Do you know, my life is terrible without both of you. We really need you.. Wallah eshtgtlkom! 7yaty bdoonk ya mama mdri keef t7mlt'ha.. W al7een bdoon baba, mdri keef b3eesh bdoonk ya 7beebi, mdri e4a knt bgdr akml 7yati bdoonk aw la. Bs ma atw83. When I was young, I thought that everything will last forever, but my mom didn't last forever.. And from that day I realized that nothing will last forever.. After that I did my best to keep you as long as I can baba.. But I couldn't.. I saw you in the morning yesterday, and after 2 hours from seeing your amazing smile, they told me that you made a car accident, and you left.. Forever.. And yeah baba, can I ask you something? Leeh tzwjt ma gltlna? Leeh 5bait 3leena? W 9ar 3ndk bnt thaniya.. Bnt '3airna Ana w samo w Rana.. You didn't think of the day when you leave and we know about them? Yeah me too, I never thought that you will leave us this soon. Yes I was shocked bs baba wallah I still love you so much.. And I will never hate you. I don't know how this day passed without the smell of your double shots espresso, and without the sound of the news on the TV, and the newspaper, its still on bartable ely bl,kitchen.. Baba even Merry and Lelian miss you, I saw them crying today.. Baba, Allah yr7mk w yjm3ni feek bl,Frdous ant w mama ya 7yat w Glb w roo7 bntkom antom. M3 eslammah.. And I kissed the picture and hugged the picture and laid on the bed and tears slowly started to fall.. 

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A week later: 

The past week I lost weight, 6KGmaybe?

I was walking through the school hallways at 6:45 AM, black bags under my eyes, a high messy bun, a Pale face, and buggy sweater.; going to my class. I can hear girls whispering, they're talking about me. And about how I look, and about my skinny body. I was the type of girls who knows everyone in the school, I was social person, active one, helpful one. A9b7 3la kl a7d, and I smile at them. But this time, I didn't say good morning, I didn't smile. I was looking terribly awful. 

Ms. Maha: 9ba7 el5eer juju

I looked at her, then walked. I didn't bother myself to even smile.

As I entered the class, I saw my friends talking, laughing, and gossiping. As they realized That i came in they all went silent. I didn't talk to them, I just made my way straight to my chair, threw my bag on the floor, sat, and I stared at the floor blankly. Lama came to me 

Lama: good morning sunshine 

Jay; what do you want? 

Lama: shfeek? 

Jay: nothing. Go away. 

Lama: t3ali bklmk and she held my hand. 

Jay: mabi 5laa9 engl3i 3n wjhi 

I know. I'm stupid, and selfish, and harsh. But I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. 

7:00 AM and the bell rang. 

A teacher came and said, 

Ms Asma: bnat Yallah 6aboor. 

Jana (a cutie friend, but she's not that close to me): jay Yallah 

I stood up quietly and left the class. 

Suddenly Modhi popped front of me. 

Modhi: 9ba7u

I ignored her sentence and completed walking. 

Modhi: shfeek jaya bshrk? 

Jay; wallah ya Modhi en Mali 5lg ay a7d. 

Modhi: leeh jaya ajl? 

Jay: adrs 

Modhi: uff mnk. Juju you have to move on. Btg3den k4a 6oul 3umrk? Ttwg3en 3mi Nawaf lw shafk bhl, 7ala byr'9a?

Jay: UFF ANTOM MA TFHMON GLT MALI 5LG ATKLM MOMKEN T5LOONI L7ALI? SECOND OF ALL HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO MOVE ON WHEN I LOST A'3LA SH59 3LA GLBI?ESH59 ELW7EED ELY KAN M5LEENI AKML 7YATI? And I ran to the toilet with tears in my eyes.

I went inside one of the toilets, slammed the door behind me and locked it. And tears found their way on my cheeks. I cried and cried, and cried. I know that crying won't change anything and it won't return my dad. But I just felt like crying. Without being bothered with door knocks. But they did, they knocked the door. 

Lama: juju please e6l3i 

And they kept knocking and I was ignoring them. 

Modhi: asfa ma kan g9di a'9aygk. Take your time, bye. 

I opened the door, I needed their hug. 

As soon as they heard the door being opened, they turned. I hugged them, and cried. 

Jay: sorry wallah sorry. Ma kan g9di wallah. 

Modhi; it's fine. Wash your face and let's go to the class, we have math. 

I backed off, and wiped my tears. I washed my face, and we went to the class. 

Math class was very boring. Chemistry was next. But I couldn't understand anything. Quraan then break. 

On the 4rd period, Ms. Maha came to the class, and she said that Rana wants me. 

Jay; my sister? 

Ms Maha nodded. 

I went to Ms. Maha office and I found Rana. 

Jay: wsh jabk? 

Ms. Maha: a5leekom l7alkom. 

And she went out and closed the door 

rana: leeh ma glti le? 

Jay; 3n wsho? 

She was pissed off. 

Rana: la tst'3been 

Jay: hw Rana shfeek? 

Rana: 3n mrt oboy Allah yr7mh 

Jay: ahhh 

Rana: leeh Ana a5r mn y3lm? 

Jay: wallah ma glt la7d. 

Rana: bs mfroo'9 tgoulen le. 

Jay: anti wsh drak? 

Rana: jtni elbait w g3dt t'hz2 w t9ar5

Jay: a7 wsh Jabha? 

Rana: tbe 7gha bl,wrth. 

Jay: kan glti lha en elwrth ma ytwz3 al7en. Ma t3rf hy? Ma tdre en elwrth ma ytwz3 ela lma Samo w bnt'ha eltbn ykmlon 15 sanna (:? 

Rana: galt bt76 mu7ami 

Jay: 5l t76 10 b3d, shay b,deen w eshr3 3la keef omha ely jabt'ha ho? 

Rana: 6ayb shswi al7een? 

Jay: 6l3eeni 5rooj w nroo7lha w nl3n shklha, t7sb hy elw7eeda ely tgdr tje w t9r5 w t6wl lsanha?

Rana: aha 3la Asas bt7leen elmushkla?

Jay: amanah 6l3eeni 5rooj w nroo7 ll,bait w nklm 5loud 

Rana: 6ayb 6ayb! 

.. 

I went home, we called Khalid and he came! 39b 6b3n enh leeh ma gltu le w Ana 6r6oor bhl,bait. And bla bla bma

We went to "my father's wife" house. And there was the shock. 

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What happened there? And what that wife said? And what they saw there? Wait for the next chapter to know what heppened (;;!! 

 

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